"Sometimes you laugh, to keep from crying"-T.I.

I woke up in a good note, happy and everything but then zero period came and I was irritated. I don't get why minimum day is so flippin special! So I was suppose to have a "girl date" w/ Valeree but I catted=( Ugh, !@#$%^&* I hate the weather, f$#@. Went to Costco & BJ's, Pazookie yumm=) it made my day better. Geometry was lovely! "Is that a banana slug" haha Taralyn, psychopath. "This is more work than being on top", hahahahahaha! Soo many inside jokes. I still can't believe me and her managed to sit next to eachother the whole entire year, even when we were put like on different sides of the room. Hmm, I'd like the next 2 years of math with her again, I don't think it'd be the same if she wasn't there, sigggh*. But, I feel really blaah 'cos I'm full and I left Val w/ Chris, reschedule soon?! Last night, I realized 2years of highschool has gone by and there's so much memories. Aww, sophomore year is almost over. I survived w/out my bitchass bestfriend Kevin=) but he's moving back, yesssm! No regrets, what's so ever now that I think about what I've done, no matter how it broke and build up friendships. I'm okay with what I've become, and I'm looking forward to spend the next 2 and half months with good company, and rebuilding broken relationships.

7:04 PM, MARCH 31, 2009.

Listening to: Swallow the Sea - Mathew Perryman Jones

I'm suffocating in this misery. I feel alone when I'm home, just not how things used to be. My mom is still not speaking to me and I honestly don't know why. I really miss her, I mean I guess I can be the typical teenager sometimes where I don't clean my room and ignore lectures. I hate how things are now. I understand family is forever, but my house doesn't feel like home, and it makes me sad. Sunrise to sunset, I'm usually okay. But from sunset to sunrise, I'm not. NO SLEEP what so ever, but I don't let that get in the way of how I deal with the rest of my days. Last night, I shed a couple tears while I was up till I don't even know thinking about a friend of mine, well I still consider him a friend through all are fights and I just missed those days where we kicked it daily and he'd fuck around with my bulletin board and make my room even more messi-er than it already was. I MISS MY FRIEND. I feel like such a burden in this world. It's like being surrounded by a crowd of people, and still feel alone. Hah, I noticed I get everything out on here, it makes me feel better but I wish I was more expressive with people. I'm learning to speak my mind with respectable words. I'm getting there, one day at a time. I also miss Kev, we never really talk anymore and when he'd go to Logan we'd talk for two seconds and he'd leave. Life would be so much easier if HE ACTUALLY DID MOVE BACK. Ugh, what happen to my old life!