Deprived from Reality.

People can be so demented in the thought of not successfully winning someone's heart. Now that I truly think about past incidents that have occurred, we're all selfishly filled with fantasies that could eventually eat us alive. We can get easily sweeped off our feet and easily dropped on our asses. That ending us being selfishly depress forever until someone else decides to do the same thing and it'd be another cycle of heartache. I've been hearing almost the same stories from different people of "she doesn't want me", "he doesn't love me anymore" or "what can I do for her to like me" non-sense I've put up with myself but learned that you don't need to change for anyone and if you're not good enough for them, there's always somebody out there longing for your inside and outside beauty itself. Look for someone who respects your flaws and adores your imperfections. One who is willing to love your faults and one who is ready to grow old with all of them. And not look for reasons of how you can improve yourself to fit their perfect mold. That I find is bullshit, if they don't what you enough to give you a shot or keep you; Get Over Them. It's a matter of patience, and plus being alone is not that bad. Loneliness is bliss.

I'm sick and tired of getting the same phone calls every night saying, "Kris, I'm sad. I don't know what to do anymore". I wouldn't have mind if that was the first time around for one person, but to me its just a never ending ignorance that I'm force to deal with. Haven't you noticed, I have my own set of problems and I'm called a bitch for putting mines before anyone elses. Please, this society needs a reality check.

I'm not much of a kick it person now days, so don't expect anything from me. I like embracing my solitude & independence. I didn't notice it was 112am, already. Ugh, I hate thinking of how Spring Break is almost over. Meaning, I have to face things I completly got over this week, I miss getting mad over your away msgs, now it's like an empty wall that I don't bother to read, UGH! People are soo fuckin predictable. Useless when it comes to me, though I'm supposedly something meaningful to them. No one is ever there on the real times when they're needed.

So its 2:47 am and I just got done helping a friend out with his problem. It made me feel better b/c I got that mad emotion I wanted and helped a niggga out. Two birds with one stone. Also, I feel like most teeangers fight through their aim away msgs. I bet, Mars probably doesn't have this much cyber drama. See, society is filled with immaturity. WE ALL NEED TO GROW UP.