ONE MONTH, ALREADY.

Who would've known I'd last this long. I sure didn't. Funny how I kept count of how many days we haven't shared a conversation. I'm a bit proud of myself knowing I've reached such a high number. Though, I'm not proud that I have somebody to avoid and be not alright with. I'm just not the type to think that's alright, even though I say I love giving cold shoulders. It deeply does suck. I of course have feelings and it's not like I don't wonder about trying to fix things because I do, but I just think it's not going to do me any good trying to hurt myself just to put the friendship back together. Since it has been a month, this will be my last entry where I talk about the same person as I have for the last what, 31 days? Maybe, more or less I don't know the exact. I just think it's truly time to move on from the situation and I gave him an ultimatum; he calls me when he finds the guy I used to know. And I'm most certainly sure he hasn't looked for him. Don't get be wrong, that's fine by all means. He chose where we ended up, I just gave him an option. Bittersweet aint it? It's just time to close the door on that chapter of my life. If one month wasn't long enough for him to think out wether he needs or even wants me to stay in his life, then so be it. I'm not going to stand around like a fool waiting until he's ready. Just not going to happen. I miss and I probably will always miss the times we've shared. "Our history will never be erased, he was a great companion". But our long road has ended. That would be it on that topic, I shall bring this up again when he finds the person who showed he cares, but I highly doubt that. Good night followers.