Insanity within.

1:05 AM; this isn't suppose to be depressing. Just a vent. I have a bad tendency to burn bridges with people. Bad quality, though it's nothing new to the naked eye. Have's and don't have's, does it really matter? NO. Find a reason for me to change who I used to be. The reason to start over new; and the reason is? INSANITY. Those histories will never be erased, because at one point you were a great companion. Speaking of be erased; you have changed. You're a jeeeeerk, I know. I always wondered if you would come to the rescue if I really needed you. Half the time the world is ending, truth is I am done pretending. Too much time to love defending, you and I are done pretending...

CALIFORNIA'S GREAT AMERICA IN THE A.M.-- to be continued.

"Life can be like a roller-coaster and just when you think you've had enough and you're ready to get off the ride and take the calm, easy merry-go round, you change your mind, throw your hands in the air and ride the roller-coaster all over again. That's exhilaration, that living is a bit on the edge. That's being ALIVE, and there come a time when you stand up and shout: This is me damn it. I look the way I look, think the way I think, feel the way I feel, love the way I love. I am a whole complex package. Take me or leave me. Accept me or walk away. Don't try to make me feel like less of a person; just because I don't fit your idea of who I should be and don't try to change me to fit your mold. If I need to change, I alone will make that decision. When you're strong enough to love yourself 100%, good and bad. You will be amazed at the opportunities life presents you."