Nothing but History.

Don't lose your faith, don't run away. Babe, it's only life." -KV

I've noticed that I made no attempt to see anyone from school, in purpose. Probably, because getting away is what I've been needing. A week to myself, a week to accomplish what I need to, a week of not being forced to start conversations, a week of not being forced to learn, a week of ignoring calls/msgs/ims, a week of time for ME. The sun blazed on my eyes this morning, due to the fact that I didn't bother to close the blinds last night b/c I thought, scratch that. I was too lazy to. I was looking through my blogs, and they have been depressing. OHGEEZ. "Silence speaks louder than words." I decided I was gonna brighten up this piece of ventilation. I believe a lot of things that are going to occur, wether or not its a time of love, a time of all time lows, or a time of great happiness are all gonna end up history. Because, we all get through all the emotional and physical battles of life each of everyday anyway and it's only hard to get through it because we dwell on our problems. "God put you through this, because he knows you'll get through it". I've had my share of stupid unreasonable bullshit, and sometimes I still wonder why God does this, when I don't see the point that its suppose to teach me. But, you know what. You soon realize, at least I did why he does this, to make you stronger for more of the horrendous crap you're gonna go through with the rest of your life. As a look back, from the start of third grade where I had no idea how to speak the english language to now. Oh, how I've grown. I have those boys that I stayed up crying about to thank. HAH! They are probably the main reason why I'm emotionally strong now, besides family & friends of course. Don't play anyone as a fool, so they won't do the same to you. Sometimes, separating ways from the people we love and care about is what we need. People get fed up eventually, and who are we to tell them to stop their life FOR US? We're nobody to do such a thing. It'd be there choice, and maybe the regret to do it, but at least its not our fault. I tend to be mesmerized of the thought of things, and how I think life would be so much better if things were this way or that way. I'm done mesmerizing, if this is how it's suppose to be for me then, I'm gonna ride. Today is the tomorrow we were so worried about yesterday..